Menstruation
is clean again. The theater critic sits in the tub with her clothes on.
She
listens to light rock over the radio about bending an aluminum fork with
one's
teeth. Love, in many ways, has taken over hunger. She can order a
cucumber
sandwich at St. Yves and leave the bread on the plate. In fractions, the
neighbor's lawnmower vibrates the window the way a can opener cuts
through tin.
She holds the shampoo at arm's length: the instructions have nothing
to do with
wine in her breath. Next, there will be smoke to preclude the fire.
Burning an
illegal amount of grass is the next death. She composes several numbers in
her
mind and a review of what she'll tell the police. She remembers all
the
openings and how she sometimes leaves stains on her seat. Her hands
shrivel
uninspired underwater. When she gets out, she has to step on the
bathmat.
Only now she feels safe in her body.